Monday, February 19, 2007

Love


I could have made a tenuous link to the brief this week, but my own poetic inspiration got the better of me, again. I've been reading more Shakespeare, Vicki Feaver, Barrett Browning, Tennyson and John Clare, all of whom have written about the topic of my poem this week, love. Many of these poets have described love, celebrated it, warned against it or lamented its loss. This one by Tennyson is quite beautiful: he remains one of my favourite poets.

Now Sleep the Crimson Petal

Now sleep the crimson petal, now the white;
Nor waves the cypress in the palace walk;
Nor winks the gold fin in the porphyry font.
The firefly wakens: waken thou with me.

Now droops the milk-white peacock like a ghost,
And like a ghost she glimmers on to me.

Now lies the Earth all Danae to the stars,
And all thy heart lies open unto me.

Now slides the silent meteor on, and leaves
A shining furrow, as thy thoughts in me.

Now folds the lily all her sweetness up,
And slips into the bosom of the lake.
So fold thyself, my dearest, thou, and slip
Into my bosom and be lost in me.

When I read poems which communicated their adoration of someone, something, I realised that right now love is something completely different for me. Still wonderful, a true gift, our heart's greatest desire, love also brings grief when someone or something is lost, still fights your reason and your rationality when you need them to be the winners, only thinks of itself. I'd say that sometimes love is impossible, holding you up against a wall, where fighting becomes obsolete. Love, in reality is selfish. It so often hides behind the other faces of humankind, a seemingly dormant source of motivation for our actions, yet its strength is in fact immeasurable. Because you can't destroy love, you can't deny it, you can't ignore it. Masked behind a different face, it will surge up and over that wall, and flood the place. I still marvel at how our body, our emotions are capable of feeling this intangible enigma which is love, in all its different forms. But that is besides the point, although perhaps not besides the brief... Anyway, now I've stopped rambling...

Love

Out damn spot, love's recall a haunting
of togetherness and nurture,
Blinding all to greyness and lack,
Filling out the space like the tide reaching the wall,
Flowing down to the wheel to crank slowly into motion.
After all this time, this chronicle of wasted time.

My heart's resting place invaded, squeezed and stretched,
The rack on which lies the symbol of your house
Your home, your flower.
Words spoke from you as chords do from the string,
And blood burns around my heart,
You've seemed to hear my silent voice
Which rested sleepy, dreams of night.

This coat, your gift, now weighs heavy
My shoulders fight to throw it off,
But then the cold seeps into my bones
and I am filled with thoughts of the warmth I once felt.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Is love always this way? I hope to find love some day, it has much to recommend it does love.

Rose

xo

Anonymous said...

Thanks for stopping by and commenting.

I feel the loss in your poem. Of hot love turned cold, with only the memories still flickering. I hope you find someone to rekindle the love.

Dennis said...

Wow Nat! Heck of a great post this week! Loved everything here, especially Tennyson’s poem. It’s a classic and thanks for sharing that with us. Love is an amazing subject and is as baffling to me as the mysteries of god. But on some level within me, I believe that the two are the same – and that in the end love is really the source of everything.

Natalie said...

Dennis - I do agree. Love and 'god' are one and the same. I suppose then you could say that my poem represents the effects, the consequences that love has had on me, which is not supposed in fact to be negative, but rather tortuous (in it being so wonderful), working against my rationale, etc.

Rose - love is not always this way. And it's never lost either.

Brian - As I said to Dennis, the love of this poem is still wonderful, but also torturous because it can't be mine... But never a bad thing.

Hope I cleared that one up!

gautami tripathy said...
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gautami tripathy said...

Love has different connotations fr different people.

You will find love...real love this time around.


gautami
In-between state of consciousness

rel said...

Natalie,
I think love is like suspended animation. Whether shared or only on an individual basis, everything is viewed through the suspension and colored by it...forever changed.
rel

Anonymous said...

Sadly, I can relate...

I love the last stanza, with the coat metaphor. It is such a perfect description of how an unavailable (or "wrong") love can drag us down... but once flung off, we're cold and miss what we've discarded...

Clockworkchris said...

This was a beautiful poem. I really enjoyed it. I like that you didn't feel the need to stick with the prompt. The last stanza did it for me as well. I have loved and lost so many times, but just 4 months ago I became a married man. I hope you find the joy in love I have found.

Anonymous said...

Nat – I think Love is also like wine – very tempting to drink deeply when it’s new, but in truth, is something better when sipped and aged. So often when we meet that other person we think is “it” we immediately heap all of our anima/animus projections onto them and overburden them with expectations they can never live up to. It makes it so hard to get off the ground sometimes because almost from the beginning, we’re set up to fail. Holding onto our projections of “perfect” I believe is the key. Much love to you!

Rachel said...

Reading the comments is like a post all over again. Gorgeous words Nat and thank you for the insight into a different kind of love